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If I say it enough…

Posted: December 28th, 2010 | Author: | Filed under: Misc. | Tags: Autism | 5 Comments »

…it might actually sink in.

Sure.  Most of the time it’s all I can think about.  The little things that were their quirks before are all under a new spotlight.  Everything is called into question.  But I’m still in kind of a honeymoon period here.

We don’t really know what’s going on.  We don’t really know what’s next.  We don’t really know what to expect.  We don’t really know what we’re dealing with or how bad it is or for how long or if we can expect any sort of…improvement? 

We just have this word.  And these kids. 

These perfect, adorable boys.  Who are still very kissable and hugable and as easy going as you can expect 2-year old boys to be.

Because at the end of the day, they are still 2-year old boys.

Aside from family and friends who have obviously been supportive, I want to thank my co-workers who’ve expressed concern and support as well. 

The Moms, new and old, who have given their “been there, done that” advice.  I appreciate it. 

Everyone who has relayed stories of cousins, siblings, nieces and nephews and those who have hooked me up with contacts. 

And Tom.  Your simple reaction to reading the last post (“shit”) was both appropriate and appreciated. 

I’m not sure what the right way to go about all of this is, but I think for me, telling people who I interact with daily is a given.  It’s going to affect me in ways people might not be prepared for.  Crying in the middle of the Toy department when a certain Christmas song came on the radio would be one example. 

We’ll get through this.  I know that.

We’ll be figuring it out one step at a time.

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5 Comments on “If I say it enough…”

  1. 1 Jen J. said at 10:01 pm on December 28th, 2010:

    I’m here if you need to talk. Or a hug. Or a chocolate coke. Or just for someone to say how amazing your boys are.

  2. 2 themamabeth said at 11:14 pm on December 28th, 2010:

    Oh Erin. I'm thinking of you guys. Like you said, you'll get through it. Do you read Amalah? (Google it, she'll pop right up.) Her older son is kinda sorta on the spectrum. It is like you said, he went from having quirks to having a diagnosis. One day at a time mama, one day at a time.

  3. 3 alicia s. said at 12:29 am on December 29th, 2010:

    I'm thinking of you! As a mom with an autistic son, I know all the ups and downs. You'll have good days and bad days… But your sons are still "perfect" and all you can do is give them the love and support they need. Feel free to email anytime!

  4. 4 Theta Mom said at 1:44 pm on December 29th, 2010:

    Hang in there mama! Sounds like you are doing everything you can!

    And I was just going back through the December members fo TMC hoping I didn't miss anyone! Thanks again for joining us!

  5. 5 Jenna K said at 10:14 pm on December 29th, 2010:

    Crossing my fingers for you!


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