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You know what they say about plans…

Posted: July 20th, 2013 | Author: | Filed under: Parenting, Pregnancy | 9 Comments »

35 is tricky. At least it seems to be for me.

On one hand, we are finally in a house, feeling settled.

On the other hand, my body is starting to rev up for the big change. Or so I thought.

Apparently the ladies in my family all have biological clocks that expire in the early to mid thirties. I know this because when I was 29 and just starting to contemplate having a kid, my mom warned me I might not have as much time as I imagined.

So, although I was shocked and saddened to find Shark Week popping up every 21 days out of nowhere, I wasn’t surprised. I hoped it was caused by the stress of moving, but my brain was just screaming “YOU ARE 35! THIS IS IT!”. It felt like a big, red, flashing, light over my head, and Google was never very helpful at easing my fears. (Is Google EVER helpful at easing fears?”) I pretty much cried my eyes out for an entire weekend.

I made an appointment for my yearly exam, and I noted that I was having some big irregularities with my period, and they allotted for extra time to discuss that and run tests with my midwife. And then I waited. And then my appointment got cancelled because she was at a birth (first time ever in 9 years, so I can’t complain). And then I waited some more.

While I waited, I promptly freaked out. Big time.

This is me.

Our original plan was to start trying to conceive in September, and all of a sudden it felt like my uterus was abandoning me. Closing up shop. Right when things were just as they should be. What a cruel twist of fate this was.

Never being one to sit around and let nature take it’s course, I switched gears. What was 2 months in the grand scheme of things?

In my mind, it was a done deal. My chance was gone. The sand had emptied from the proverbial hourglass.

No more babies.

So really, what did we have to lose?

Throw the plan out the window. Make a new plan!

We pulled the goalie.

And then I calmed down a little bit. Whatever happens, happens. What will be, will be.

I started testing on July 4th. That would have been the first day to get a positive test if my cycle was still in fact, short.

Negative.

I tested on the 7th.

Negative.

On the 11th I was playing around with my phone, adding apps, and I clicked on the My Days app and it suggested I might be pregnant. With no sign of my interloping aunt showing up, I went downstairs and took the last test.

Fast forward to yesterday, and me explaining to my midwife that the Peri-menopause discussion was off the table for the time being. In fact, I needed a pregnancy test.

EDD March 20, 2014

You guys! I just jumped off the deep end.

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9 Comments on “You know what they say about plans…”

  1. 1 Lindsey said at 3:21 pm on July 20th, 2013:

    Omg!!!! Congratulations!!!

  2. 2 erinclot said at 9:54 am on July 21st, 2013:

    Thank you! We are very excited.

  3. 3 Hauntie Jenna said at 4:51 pm on July 20th, 2013:

    I don't think I can wait to find out the gender. You'd better consult a psychic because Hauntie Jenna wants to buy some girl clothes!

  4. 4 erinclot said at 9:54 am on July 21st, 2013:

    You\’re just going to have to wait, Hauntie Jenna 😉

  5. 5 kathleen said at 3:21 pm on July 21st, 2013:

    I absoultly love your writing Erin I can say been there done that and now she is 16 congrats!!!!!!

  6. 6 erinclot said at 7:08 pm on July 26th, 2013:

    I knew I wasn\’t the only woman in history to do that! I\’m in good company.

  7. 7 Katie said at 9:11 am on July 22nd, 2013:

    Congratulations!! 🙂
    My recent post All Moved In

  8. 8 Laura P said at 2:41 pm on July 22nd, 2013:

    AHH! Congratulations. So exciting.


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